What if you are not who you are?
What do I mean by this? We are shaped by our surroundings, our family values, our culture, and society. These all have an impact on our values and what drives us. But what happens when be are introduced to a different way of thinking, of living?
For me, this happened in college. I had a good friend get diagnosed with Graves disease. He was blessed with a supportive family that attempted to manage his disease holistically- a concept that was novel to me. This was my first introduction into a whole new world. I began learning about how food can heal, and alternative methods to traditional medicine.
Yet I did not fully integrate everything. There was this part of me, a divide that wouldn’t allow me to fully embrace my true path. I was holding on to this belief system about who and what I was supposed to be, one that I did not even create.
Fast forward about 10 years and I now have a family. I have begun to question more and more in my life and my path. I grew up in a place where we don’t question. We have a set path of school, college, career, family, retirement. But what I found was that path didn’t jive with my soul. The more I was pushing back on my externally created path, the more turmoil I was experiencing within my soul. The worst part- this was manifesting as anger and anxiety towards my immediate family.
It is not easy to find out who you truly are. It can be a lonely path if you are not fortunate to have a few close souls to share the experience with. I am very fortunate to have a few close girlfriends to be witnessing my success and setbacks with, which is making the journey much less lonely.
I share this with you so you know you are not alone, you can choose a different path in life. Seek out those with values or lifestyles that you admire and learn from them. We are all more connected than we realize.